nice people

i've decided why chicago is a superior city. we have good people here. it's colder than poland these days (inside joke... but seriously), and getting cars our of snow is something anybody who owns a car in the city (and the suburbs i hear) is something of a task. luckily i had the worst of it on friday right when we got all the snow. i had the worst day ever dog walking because i kept getting stuck. at one point i got stuck in a dead-end turn-around, but i had a good samaritan help push me out. unfortunately almost immediately after i parked and a snow plow came and buried my car so i spent another 15 minutes re-digging it out. but with all of the cars in need of help, there seems to be good samaritans all over the place!

chicagoans are just nice people, and we're all in it together. we know it! annie spent an hour and a half digging her car our, and some random person stopped to help. another car got stuck trying to park in front of our building, and we tried to help push him out (not successful sadly) but the stuck guy let another car literally push his car with his own car out of the spot. things like this are happening all over. i love it.

people really are friendlier here. of course there are assholes everywhere, but i stand by my city.

-2 degrees

today was a funny day. i of course feel the need to finish my christmas shopping on the coldest day so far of the year. the thermometer in my car never went above -1 degrees, and hovered back and forth between -2 and -1. at one point it even hit -3.

bloody marys at the Rail were the highlight of the afternoon. they hit the spot and i had some good company :-) though i'm thinking now that the bloody marys, a couple fries and some fruit were the majority of eating i've done today. oh and i had some popcorn! hmmm....

i also fear i am getting a cold. not good when i must work in the cold. it will sure feel good to be home in MI and not have to do a single thing but be social.

riddle me this...

if you didn't have to tell the truth, why would you??

i've never wanted divorce more in my entire life. my poor love-fool of a brother, this scares me away from marriage so much, yet i strangely i find myself wanting a boyfriend... i haven't felt the "urge" in a while, yet i don't want to just date the next guy i see just because i'm a little lonely now and then. what to do, what to do....

meanwhile, Blizzard of Dec '08 is going on outside my window. who knew it was going to be this loud. geez... doesn't the weather know people are trying to sleep?? plus it totally cut down on quality Molly Losey time. we all ran to our cars at the first snowflake in fear of the snow warnings we've been getting since yesterday. meteorologists have no lives. seriously. i dont care about the weather, i care about dealing with the damage control the next day. no thank you mayor daley.

at least we'll have a white xmas... i know i'm prepared!!

what the hell, family?

for once in my life i am so pissed at family members that are not my parents.

offense #1... my brother discovered that his wife is having an affair. a full blown affair. the last we heard she confessed to seeing this guy but nothing had happened. but he found some pretty heinous emails, and so their marriage is ending.

she has no idea how this is going to effect her and how it effects everyone. she literally has two sides to her, sane and crazy. sane loves my brother and wants to stay married to him, but crazy doesn't love him and does everything she can to hurt him. so finally, the shit is hitting the fan.

offense #2... most of my extended family (aunts and cousins) like to judge us midwestern family members and then gossip about it. for example, my cousins looked at my facebook and saw that i was voting for obama, and then my aunt talked to my mom and told her about how bad it was that "all over my facebook" it said that i was voting for obama. one wouldn't think this was a bad thing, except that she said it with disgust, as if I (and my sister) was evil for for voting for obama.

i've known for years that they are an extremely judgemental and narrow-minded group of people, but this just takes the cake. families are supposed to love each other and support each other, and this is just insane. if anything, just accept it! they call themselves christians but they can't possibly love and accept anyone who doesn't share their thoughts?? it makes me sick.


i'm just so tired and emotionally drained by all of this, that i don't know what to do anymore. i need sleep. God send my brother peace and safety, and give me the power love despite these evils against me.

oh, future, where art thou?

so i was told a while back about this school called the Chicago Portfolio School, a graphic design and advertisement school. however in the past i've been so gung-ho for doing more of the contemporary art/ conceptual painting/ museum curatorial stuff, but lately i've been having doubts about those plans. i really really really want to get my MFA someday, but i'm not ready yet, and i need money. i need a job. therefore, perhaps being trained for a dependable job like a designer or art director is a smart way to go. plus i have no knowledge of the computer programs, or any graphic design experience, and i have to get that somewhere.

so i heard about the school from a friend who heard about it from a friend who heard about it from other graphic design professors, and they all had good things to say. and this school helps try to get you a job once the year is over! so a year from now i could potentially be looking at having a good full-time job i would enjoy.

it's not fine art, but it's creative. i'd stretch my brain in a different direction than i have before, and the modern world is going technologic, so it would be good to be a master of both the classic art of painting, as well as the world of photoshop!

so that's the plan. plus i can still get my MFA, just after i have some cash and experience under my belt.

wish me luck.

look! i post!

well we say the Lowly crew again tonight. it was nice. it brought back warm fuzzy feelings from the summer. i still need to get those tour pictures from Tim, that scoundrel. he even had me do merch tonight again... and i made some money!!

speaking of making money, walking the dogs isn't so bad in the cold. my good friend who goes to NMU got me a sweet discount on some winter gear, so i suit up every day in my north face jacket and merril boots, and i feel like a super star! i'm not sure how long i will be a dog walker, but at least it's been a good experience.