-2 degrees

today was a funny day. i of course feel the need to finish my christmas shopping on the coldest day so far of the year. the thermometer in my car never went above -1 degrees, and hovered back and forth between -2 and -1. at one point it even hit -3.

bloody marys at the Rail were the highlight of the afternoon. they hit the spot and i had some good company :-) though i'm thinking now that the bloody marys, a couple fries and some fruit were the majority of eating i've done today. oh and i had some popcorn! hmmm....

i also fear i am getting a cold. not good when i must work in the cold. it will sure feel good to be home in MI and not have to do a single thing but be social.

riddle me this...

if you didn't have to tell the truth, why would you??

i've never wanted divorce more in my entire life. my poor love-fool of a brother, this scares me away from marriage so much, yet i strangely i find myself wanting a boyfriend... i haven't felt the "urge" in a while, yet i don't want to just date the next guy i see just because i'm a little lonely now and then. what to do, what to do....

meanwhile, Blizzard of Dec '08 is going on outside my window. who knew it was going to be this loud. geez... doesn't the weather know people are trying to sleep?? plus it totally cut down on quality Molly Losey time. we all ran to our cars at the first snowflake in fear of the snow warnings we've been getting since yesterday. meteorologists have no lives. seriously. i dont care about the weather, i care about dealing with the damage control the next day. no thank you mayor daley.

at least we'll have a white xmas... i know i'm prepared!!

what the hell, family?

for once in my life i am so pissed at family members that are not my parents.

offense #1... my brother discovered that his wife is having an affair. a full blown affair. the last we heard she confessed to seeing this guy but nothing had happened. but he found some pretty heinous emails, and so their marriage is ending.

she has no idea how this is going to effect her and how it effects everyone. she literally has two sides to her, sane and crazy. sane loves my brother and wants to stay married to him, but crazy doesn't love him and does everything she can to hurt him. so finally, the shit is hitting the fan.

offense #2... most of my extended family (aunts and cousins) like to judge us midwestern family members and then gossip about it. for example, my cousins looked at my facebook and saw that i was voting for obama, and then my aunt talked to my mom and told her about how bad it was that "all over my facebook" it said that i was voting for obama. one wouldn't think this was a bad thing, except that she said it with disgust, as if I (and my sister) was evil for for voting for obama.

i've known for years that they are an extremely judgemental and narrow-minded group of people, but this just takes the cake. families are supposed to love each other and support each other, and this is just insane. if anything, just accept it! they call themselves christians but they can't possibly love and accept anyone who doesn't share their thoughts?? it makes me sick.


i'm just so tired and emotionally drained by all of this, that i don't know what to do anymore. i need sleep. God send my brother peace and safety, and give me the power love despite these evils against me.

oh, future, where art thou?

so i was told a while back about this school called the Chicago Portfolio School, a graphic design and advertisement school. however in the past i've been so gung-ho for doing more of the contemporary art/ conceptual painting/ museum curatorial stuff, but lately i've been having doubts about those plans. i really really really want to get my MFA someday, but i'm not ready yet, and i need money. i need a job. therefore, perhaps being trained for a dependable job like a designer or art director is a smart way to go. plus i have no knowledge of the computer programs, or any graphic design experience, and i have to get that somewhere.

so i heard about the school from a friend who heard about it from a friend who heard about it from other graphic design professors, and they all had good things to say. and this school helps try to get you a job once the year is over! so a year from now i could potentially be looking at having a good full-time job i would enjoy.

it's not fine art, but it's creative. i'd stretch my brain in a different direction than i have before, and the modern world is going technologic, so it would be good to be a master of both the classic art of painting, as well as the world of photoshop!

so that's the plan. plus i can still get my MFA, just after i have some cash and experience under my belt.

wish me luck.

look! i post!

well we say the Lowly crew again tonight. it was nice. it brought back warm fuzzy feelings from the summer. i still need to get those tour pictures from Tim, that scoundrel. he even had me do merch tonight again... and i made some money!!

speaking of making money, walking the dogs isn't so bad in the cold. my good friend who goes to NMU got me a sweet discount on some winter gear, so i suit up every day in my north face jacket and merril boots, and i feel like a super star! i'm not sure how long i will be a dog walker, but at least it's been a good experience.

cold weather days

I find myself wondering about how the hell I'm going to make it through winter. I started this dog walking job in the late summer, understanding Chicago winters, but perhaps not thinking it all through. Not that I plan on working as a dog walker forever, but you do what you gotta do....

Halloween in in 2 days. We're throwing a party, and I'm pretty excited. I need to figure out the music and such... I'm going to be a viking, so I can rape and pillage at a whim. I dont think i'll have the fangs this dude has, or an axe/hammar. However, I do have a retractable dagger! It's pretty cool, I love stabbing people.

I also got a skull pinata for the party, though I'm not sure drunkin swinging at a pinata is good for our apartment. maybe I'll just fill it with candy and have a gaping hole in it.

Ooooooooohhhh can't wait!

I've gone to the dogs.

So the job search has twisted and turned and I've found myself down an interesting turn - dogwalking. it truly is a unique job, but after almost a full first-week, I'm really enjoying it. There are 10 dogs I take care of monday - saturday. and no, I dont walk all 10 at once, I go house to house walking one dog at a time (usually). 2 of the dogs live together so I walk them together. I think Macchiata used to be mad at me when I came home smelling like a dog-whore, but now I think she is ok with it. As long as I give her a good walk too.

I still am looking for another job, but what comes will come. Some of the stress is taken off, and it feels good.

In terms of my budding career as an artist is going slow as well, but you can see my art at Ann Sathers during the Andersonville Arts Weekend! October 3-5, though I'm going to try to cheat and put my art up earlier in the week, probably around Oct 1ish... Check out the website!

www.andersonville.org/artsweekend/

Come and enjoy.