frustration

so i think my roommates think i've gone crazy. i will admit, my lifestyle has gotten a bit soap opera-esque, but i'm not unhappy with anything. i thrive on this kind of excitment, i love running around and meeting new people. i am having so much fun, after work, in work, and i am entering a new stage in life and i am ready for it.

i think my problem was that i was very unsatisfied with my life before. i felt depressed unsettled. i was ready to move back to grand rapids and see what kind of life i could live there. and now that i've dove head first into this new life of AICers, i'm failing in my combination of both lives, and people of my old life don't like the new life.

so i feel a bit trapped. i don't want either extremes, and building contacts and friendships at the AIC is just as important to me as maintaining old friendships. plus it doesnt help that my weekends are tuesdays and wednesdays, so my schedule is so opposite of everyone else's that it makes things look even worse.

what to do, what to do...