cold weather days

I find myself wondering about how the hell I'm going to make it through winter. I started this dog walking job in the late summer, understanding Chicago winters, but perhaps not thinking it all through. Not that I plan on working as a dog walker forever, but you do what you gotta do....

Halloween in in 2 days. We're throwing a party, and I'm pretty excited. I need to figure out the music and such... I'm going to be a viking, so I can rape and pillage at a whim. I dont think i'll have the fangs this dude has, or an axe/hammar. However, I do have a retractable dagger! It's pretty cool, I love stabbing people.

I also got a skull pinata for the party, though I'm not sure drunkin swinging at a pinata is good for our apartment. maybe I'll just fill it with candy and have a gaping hole in it.

Ooooooooohhhh can't wait!

I've gone to the dogs.

So the job search has twisted and turned and I've found myself down an interesting turn - dogwalking. it truly is a unique job, but after almost a full first-week, I'm really enjoying it. There are 10 dogs I take care of monday - saturday. and no, I dont walk all 10 at once, I go house to house walking one dog at a time (usually). 2 of the dogs live together so I walk them together. I think Macchiata used to be mad at me when I came home smelling like a dog-whore, but now I think she is ok with it. As long as I give her a good walk too.

I still am looking for another job, but what comes will come. Some of the stress is taken off, and it feels good.

In terms of my budding career as an artist is going slow as well, but you can see my art at Ann Sathers during the Andersonville Arts Weekend! October 3-5, though I'm going to try to cheat and put my art up earlier in the week, probably around Oct 1ish... Check out the website!

www.andersonville.org/artsweekend/

Come and enjoy.

party

so i decided today that if i get the big job i've applied for, i'm throwin' a party! i know i know, meredith throwing a party? that's unheard of! but yes, rest assured, it does happen, it will happen!

now if i don't get the job, then i think i should still throw a party, as to appear unscathed, even though i'll be on suicide watch on the inside (just kidding). in any case, a party should still be thrown to celebrate unemployment! for all of us out of college kids (and hey, college kids soon to be unemployed) who need to party our cares to the wind.

if it is a "i've got the job!" party, then i think it will be swedish themed. after all, i work for 2 different swedish american institutions. so be prepared. come in your finist blue and yellow get-up. or not.

friends can be let-downs

so milwaukee was fun... it wasn't as traumatic as i thought it would be. of course i became irritated with my family at many points, so i wasn't all that sad to ditch them at the ferry depot. from there i drove to craig's apartment west of the downtown. i pulled in, and there he was. he looked the same and yet very different... harsher than i remember, though i've gain weight since then so i'm like the chubby one now. but take it or leave it. i really wonder what was going on in that head of his, but i've been wondering that for 2 years now.

needless to say, we had a good visit. i still feel very comfortable with him; we've always gotten along well, it's never been awkward. i was incredibly nervous at first though, and i'm not totally sure why. i think part of it was revisiting all of those emotions again. the good was really good, and the bad was really bad. luckily, he admits he was an asshole, which i appreciate. and i gave him enough shit about it so i am fully satisfied with where we are now. after all, i'm sure both of us have grown up a heck of a lot, so you would think it would show.

even now, i still feel a tangle of emotions over him, and probably with my current situations, and even a pinch of me still wishes for those old days....



and yes, why did i title this entry so? instead of planning my life around boys or family, i somewhere along the way thought it would be a good decision to plan my life around my friends. but what let downs they can be! it make me envy those who live alone. perhaps, craig, i'll follow in your footsteps after all...

pre-milwaukee

So this weekend is going pretttty good. And the shit hasn't even hit the fan yet.

I'm going to milwaukee on monday with my brother and his wife, and i'm pretty excited. A) i get to spend time with my bro and his wife- who i absolutely love, she's so great. B) after i ditch my fam, i will meet up with craig... and "ex" who was an asshole back in the day, but who seems very friendly again. i can't quite think of why he would be so excited to see me, but hopefully it will turn out well.

I have to say, i'm even a little nervous for our reunion. he's an interesting guy, and all of my friend hate him because of his former duschebagness.. so much so that i'm ashamed to even say i'm going to see him when i'm in Milwaukee. But we shall see. I'll only be in Milwaukee monday night, so i'm thinking no matter what it should be pretty chill. we will hang out, see how much each of us has changed (or not...) and then part ways. it will be the perfect visit.

pitch a fork

i have to say, CocoRosie kind of soothes my soul, especially right now. i have just returned from my one and only day at pitchfork here in the city, and man what a day! it was a lot of fun, just extremely tiring. Caitlin and her bestie kate came up for the festival as a kind of post-birthday festation, so them, jerid and myself went down and mingled with the "indie" kids.

There were some great acts, !!! and Animal Collective where the most memorable, i even moshed a little bit here and there (my first time moshing!). the best was drinking the goose island IPA all day, starting about 1 or 2 pm. needless to say, by the time !!! got on, i was feeling my finest. sadly, i think i lost the most of my energy at that point so the rest of me moshed half-heartedly.

the moon is hanging so beautifully in the sky tonight, but my tired, dirty feet are thinking bed should come quickly, if not a little prematurely. Dylan M is in town tonight at Tor's, but i just don't have the energy! it's so sad.

i think tomorrow i may need a beach break after work. i've been hankering to get up to the loyola park beach ever since me and sarah "discovered" it... some metropolis coffee and a cat nap on the beach sounds like heaven right now.


good night moon
good night macchi
good night, coco and rosie.

el musica

man this blog is depressing... let's talk about something great: music!

life has been so musical lately. being on tour with Tim Lowly was of course a jam-packed music-fest, and it definetly has set the tone for life since. he played another show sunday night, and it was by far one of the best shows they've ever done. i had gotten so used to their tour sets that i kind of forgot what the whole band could actually sound like, and there was just something that night that clicked. they played at the elastic arts foundation, and the sound there was kick-ass... and maybe just the mood of the place helped too, but the whole band was really getting into the spirit and by the end of the show, the whole thing felt euphoric. plus tim has me, annie, and laura stand on the stage and "dance" for the encore since it was kind of like the closing show of tour.

we also made some more music friend this weekend. saturday annie and i went with ethan to see Controllar, and couple, Anat and Thomas, from amsterdam who kind of sounded like a fusion of radiohead and cocorosie, and their only instrument was a glove. they sounded awesome and it was such a unique experience to watch, plus they were just great people! they felt kind of like kindred spirits, so incredibly nice. they played again tuesday at Silvies, and i think they got a kick out of us being their instant groupies, haha... luckily they are coming back to chicago in august, so we will be able to hang out with them again before they go back to amsterdam. then after that i guess i'll just have to go to amsterdam to visit them. the sacrifices i have to make for friendship...lol...

this weekend we are celebrating Caitlin's birthday. she's coming with kate to chicago, and we're going to Pitchfork. i've heard good and bad things about Pitchfork, but there are some bands i'm really looking forward to seeing, and it's a good price for a music festival. plus it will be so great to see caitlin again, i've been missing all those kids. life after college is kind of lonely after all...

ok i must sleep now. i've consumed too much alcohol tonight to be still awake. though man could i go for a hot Dougs hot dog right about now....